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What This Temporary Separation Is Teaching Me About Motherhood
It’s not too much for me to have these 3 sons
My middle child, J, and my husband left us 2 days ago to serve a quarantine order, as his teacher was tested positive recently. J was upset and defiant initially. He hugged me so many times and didn’t want to leave. I was very thankful to see his negative test results, and that after some struggle, he eventually went off willingly with his father.
We’ve been trying to cope with having all 3 boys in our 4th year now, and it always feels like they’re too much for me to handle. But now, I truly know that I need all 3 of them.
It pains me so much to be separated from my husband and middle child, even for these past two days. I don’t think I’ve cried so much in such a short time. It feels like my heart is being ripped into pieces. Yet, I’m so grateful for these tears, this unexpected feeling of intense loss.
My sadness is teaching me that I need my J. I need all 3 Js and my loving husband. They are the reason for my abundance, for me to feel that my life is complete when they’re around.
I am so grateful for this realization. What I thought was a source of daily harshness, is my source of Gentleness too.
Have you felt the same way about what you thought was a source of harshness in your life too?
